My Gift

This is an amazing song!
I know it'll probably sound really childish, but I want my husband to be like that.
I want him to see me as beautiful as the sunrise, even if I'm old and grey.
I can't really put my feelings into words. It's hard to do!
I just want him to know, that I pray for him everyday. ha even if he doesn't read this, I still pray for him. And I don't think that'll stop.
I keep a shoe box full of letters for him, in the letters I write out things that I've been feeling, how I've been praying for him long and hard over the years. And how I can't wait to meet him! (which I think is the most exciting part)
I think it's really fun how God doesn't give us clues till the time's just right. When I think about how I have such a special gift waiting for him, I get butterflies in my stomach!
I plan to give him the shoe box to him on my wedding day. I can't wait to see his face when I do!
I don't know how he'll react. If he'll smile, if he'll cry, or both! I just don't know.

But unlike so many girls these days, I'm not going to go looking for him.
I'm going to be in the Arms of The Lord till the day he comes and when he does, my Father places my hand in his. That way I know that this is the one God wants for me!
I can't wait to see him for the first time as my husband. I don't know who he is or where he is, if I've already met him, great. But I won't know till God tells me, and I can't wait till that moment!

"Most important of all,
continue to show deep love for each other,
for love covers a multitude of sins." ~ 1 Peter 4:8

The Tears, they will fall

The tears,

they fall.

hard at first,

why would you 

do this O God? 

i don't see, what 

is the gang?

The tears,

they fall,

i can't see

at all,

things are

blurred,

I want to believe

in anything but

the Word.

I only get

up in the

morning,

to lie back

down at

night. 

I think, 'what is the point?' 

it seems like I'm stuck,

it's like I'm out of luck. 

Gradually,

I find 

that the 

Lord has not

forsaken me.

though it may look like it,

i realize,

that He will always be there,

to pull me out of the pit.

Gradually, 

I get better,

I can see the sunshine,

I can smell the flowers

I know that 

God will bring 

me relief,

he will pick me up

in his strong arms,

and he will offer me

the cup, 

of life. 

The tears,

they fall,

but I have not lost!

I will not lose!

For my God is greater,

my God is stronger. 

And with Him,

I'll never back down,

I'll never give up.

though they will pound 

me, 

they will not drown 

me, 

For through Christ,

I can do all things. 

I know that He 

will not give me

more then my 

small,

breakable shoulders

can hold.

I will rejoce in God

in the good times,

and I will praise him

in the bad. 

The tears,

they fall.

He will keep me

close,

and give me

a rose, 

to dry my tears 

when they roll

down my cheeks.

But I know,

that I'm not alone.

I'm never alone.

and if my God is for me,

...who can stand against me?

"...For I will never leave you,

nor forsake you." ~ Hebrews 13:5

I'll be myself

God made me,
he carved me,
he showed me who I was,
who I am.
So I'll be who I am,
nothing more,
nothing less.

I won't let people
influence me as
best as I can.
but through the Lord,
I can do all things!
which means I can be myself
around anybody!!

It doesn't matter what they
think of me,
or if they criticize me,
or if they talk about me
behind
my back.
I don't care.
And I won't let it bother me,
for I am a Princess,
I am Royalty,
I am God's daughter,
and that's all that maters.

So let them criticize me!
but their words won't
reach my ears.
their talk will be in
vain,
for I will hear
none of it.
Because God is my Father,
he protects me from
hurt.
Thank you Lord!
for being too good for me!!

Feelings that make me feel

 

I listened to this just today. and it gave me a whole new view on the love Jesus has for me. 

Sometimes it's hard to think that he's there and that he's always going to love us, no matter how ugly we think we are, or how sinful we are, or what bad things we've done. He will ALWAYS love us!!!

it's hard to get isn't it? that's what I thought too. 

but then I read the passage: Jude 1:2

"Mercy, peace, and love be yours in abundance." 

LOVE will be yours in ABUNDANCE!! isn't that amazing?! Like I said before, he will love us...always! 

I'm content

"Though it's raining,
I'm smiling.
The skies may be dark,
but I'm happy.
I may be the unluckiest girl,
but I'm content.
Because I can do all things through
Christ
who strengthens me!!"
~ Me! ❦

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Christy Miller, and other things ;) (GIRLS ONLY)

Hey guys!
I just finished the most amazing and encouraging book I've picked up in a while! It's called Christy Miller. and actually there's more then one book thank goodness!! if it was only one I would be in tears! :D no joke!
I love Christy! she's a girl that everyone can relate to in one way or another. And her relationship with Todd is such a gift from God (even though it's fiction but that's not my point) I wish I knew someone and we had that kind of relationship.
So it's safe to say I found my model for my future husband. :) he doesn't have to be EXACTLY like Todd, but I want him to be pretty close. Not that I'm going to go looking for someone like that. ha heck no. I'm going to wait in God's arms. Only through God is my husband going to find me. and that's the way I want to keep it.

As any of you heard the song called "Average Girl" by BarlowGirl? well if not, any girls out there should definatly model themselves after BarlowGirl. From the first time I've heard that song, I knew who I wanted to be like. and so far, it's worked out great! God's saved me a few times from having my heart broken, when i got that image of what kind of girl I wanted to be. Even though I slipped once, it didn't end in tears and broken hearts. No, we promised to continue our friendship, as friends. and I'm really greatful that God let things turn out like they did.
I had a friend just ask me today if I had my eye on any guys. ha I laughed so hard that I cried. he didn't understand why of course. So I explained to him that I wasn't looking for one. so no. Right now I just have my eyes on God. He smiled and said "Good answer."
So that right there is another reason why I wear a purity ring. and I'm  really greatful that I have been able to keep my focus on God. :)

So I just felt like giving you guys an update that's all.And I hope that my decisions in my romance life have encouraged you. Your in my Prayers!

Your encouraging and loving friend,
Aline

Note: I'm not suicidal!

Note: I'm not suicidal!!! Yes, i know my last post was about a girl who was suicidal, but last night I had an urge to write a poem about a girl (or guy) who had problems and felt like her voice was silent. but it turns out that it wasn't. And she/he turns out alright in the end.
So i just wanted to explain that!

Changed

I've been chipped,

I've been ripped.

My heart has been dashed and 

broken.

My hopes are gone,

and worries have replaced them. 

"where are you God?!" I scream into the

night. 

"Do you even hear my prayers?!"  I say through the

tears. 

I wait for his answer. 

but I hear nothing. 

I see the knife,

I see the pills,

I see the gun.

"It would be so easier."  I think.

"And then my troubles would be gone." 

My finger curls around,

the triger,

the blade,

the pills

"Come home my child!!" 

I falter as the Lord speaks 

to me 

as clear as day.

"You have wondered 

for to long.

Come home. 

come home to me.

And I will make your 

life complete.

I will make you a 

blessing among men."

My life is turned 

around. 

My heart is sewen back

together

My scares, gone.

No one questions my

happiness.

I've finally broken

the chains.

I am whole. 

I am CHANGED!!

Joshua 1:9 says "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go." 

my new favorite song and the message it gave me

I just listened to "Million Voices" by BarlowGirl. and it's an absoulutly AMAZING song!!
Their saying 'we're a million strong, and getting stronger still. They'll remember we WHERE HERE!!" and it's true. If we set our minds to something, we can make a change. I know you've probably heard this before and that your thinking 'oh no not this again.' but another verse says "we were made to start the riots, we were made to take on the impossible" and it's true. God wants us to change the world!! and through him we CAN! It may be hard at times but if you stop and think about how many people you would be saving. The reward would out weigh the cost!!! BY A TON!!
If we're silent, then who will stand up for those who cant?
If we don't have the strength, then who does?!
It has to start somewhere doesn't it?!
Why not here??
Why not now??!!

People are dying every day, and most of those people don't know Christ.
If no one preaches to them, how can they be taught??!!
If WE don't preach to them, we could be throwing people's lives away.
We have the world at our finger tips. and with God by our side, who can stand against us?! if we trust in him completely we can change the world, we can make people's pain die down. we can give people a REASON to live!!!
Ask yourselves this: Why am I just sitting  here, when I could be doing something that can change the fate of another's life?!?!

1 Peter 2:9
"But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people belonging to God, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.

Official story synopsis!!! tell me what you guys think!

“Aidan?” the whisper said again. It was coming from the wall I was leaning on. I racked my brain to remember who was next to me. 

“Yeah?” I whispered back. 

“Get out of here!” this time I recognized Ryan’s voice. 

“No way. I’m not leaving you guys.” I answered. I could hear him scoff. 

“yeah sure, and when you end up dead, we’ll have to wait another thousand years in order to stop the Warriors.” he said sarcastically. 

“Ryan’s right.” That was Kali. She must be in the same cell as Ryan. 

“I am not leavin-”

“You didn’t let me finish.” she interrupted. I bit on my lip to keep from yelling out in frustration. “Your way more important then any of us. And you have to be the one to put the Warriors back in their place. You and only you! Not me, not Ryan. You!” 

how did I get drafted into this mess? Why me? Why now?

These are the questions that are bouncing back and forth in Aidan's mind. And it all started when he sent his sister's burnt body down the river to the words of her favorite love song in a bed of roses. 

After that he went with his hated father to Dilston Castle for "special trainning". when he passed the expectations of his teacher he was sent to the king himself. 

When he met the old frail king, he was thrusted into a game he had no will to play. All he wanted was his old life back. he didn't want the responsability of making sure that the other Clan's were on his side. But, if he wanted a peaceful life, he'd have to grit his teeth and pull through. 

or things would fall apart. 

The Warrior Clan is the arch enemy of almost every Clan. They're never welcome, but the other Clan's need some strong force to band them together. 

Is Adian's new found powers enough? 

Will he fail? 

Or will things turn out just fine?

With a new band of friends, which include the one and only Woodsy Princess, his best friend, and an annoying dark boy with a dark shadow of a past. 

The fate of their entire world, resides in their hands. 

How will it prevail?

Encouragement

Everybody knows that life is hard. 
but as a teen, it's especially hard. 


This week, we went to a home school convention. 
there we visited a place called College Plus. 
there they asked me what degree I wanted. that's when it really struck me. 
I wasn't going to be a kid anymore. 
I was going to grow up one day. 


At that moment, I'll admit I flipped. I had a general idea of what i wanted to do, but nothing was really decided. and I still have yet to decide. but I think the man asked the wrong question. 
He asked me "what do you want to do with your life?" 
He should have said "What do you feel like God want's you to do with your life?" 
this is the question I have been asking myself since I was 11. 


Now, I know I'm really good with words. And I love to write! and if I get the 'Best Seller's' award then hallelujah, praise be to God! 
but that's very unlikely. 


So now, it's up to me to figure out what God's focus is for me. 
and I plan on figuring it out, and I already have a feel on where he's taking me. 
I love the Missionary Field. and one day I would love to go back out there. Now that I am growing up, I can't just rely on my mom to take me there. 
now it's up to me to get there. 
And I have a good feeling about this. 
My mother suggested to me, that I join up with the on-field media. now i'm not so into the whole video taking, or editing it, but I would love to be a photographer. and getting out there taking tons of pictures. Maybe for a magazine, writing an aritcal with them. 


I just thought I would share with you all what i was heading for. Your prayers would be greatly appreciated! 


God bless!


ALiNe   

Hi ya'll!

Hi guys! 
well today has been better. I'm looking forward to the weekend cuz i'm going to Disney with my grandparents. so i'm really excited. today i bought a new pair of running shoes, which i needed. and i'm looking for a youth group. so hopefully i can make some friends that live close. I am also going to be taking Karate, (so there Mr. I'm-not-active-enough!! :P :D) so that's going to be good excersize, along with self-defense seeing as we don't have a man in the house anymore. but that's besides the point. 


I'm going to finish my first novel hopefully (God willing) by the end of the summer and hopefully be able to sell it on Amazon! :D eek i'm so excited! so yep, my week has been good. :) thanks for ya'll's prayers. 

The Lonlest Girl

I must be the lonlest girl on the planet! sure, i go around and make friends who live half way across the planet, or the US, or two hours away from home. i'm hardly in a good mood anymore. i barely have anyone to talk to anymore. i'm getting discuraged and depressed. and i don't think listening to 'on my own' from Les Miserables is helping very much. :( *big long sigh* well i just thought i should get everybody else gloomy....not really but i had to say something since nobody seems to be listening to me lately.... :'(
I miss home.