hi

hi again, sorry this post might not be very "happy" but i'm just having a bad day, everything isn't going right, everything is turning "upside-down". I just made up this poem and thought I would share it.

wishing you were here again

Wishing you were somehow here again,
wishing you were somehow nere,
sometimes it seeme if I just dreamed
somehow you would be here.
Wishing I could here your voice again
knowing that I never would.
Dreaming of you won't help me to do
all that you dreamed I could.

Too many years fighting back tears
why can't the past just die?
Wishing you were somehow here again
knowing we must say goodbye
Try to forgive
teach me to live
give me the strengh to try
No more memories, no more silent tears,
no more gazing across the waisted years.
Help me say goodbye.
Help me say goodbye!

and here's another one that Christine sent me. it's how i feel, and how i hope to feel in the future.

Dancing with the Angels

She couldn't believe what was happening,
it was so hard to see, so hard to think.
Her life hd changed so suddenly,
she had lost a link
to her family chain

A man, who was more then a father
he was her best friend.
A man who oved her and cherished her,
and now it seemed like the end.

It felt lik nothing would be the same again,
she wanted it to be normal, but er life was uside-down.
she cried herself to sleep at nigh,
she felt terribly bound,
to her misery.

She felt alone even when surrounded by friends,
and then, as she thought, as she prayed, as she cried,
she realized her father had ben called
to a better place

He was dancing with the angels,
he is celebrating in heaven,
all the watching, waiting,
for a daughter, who was more then a daugher,
she was hisvery own princess.

And then, she knew deep down inside her heart
that she must be strong, must be brave. 
She must trust in God's love and potection
she must not hide herselfin a cave,
but make her father proud.

Everyone saw her change,
they saw her strength, her love, a life inside of her,
and in her eyes, her heart, her smile
they saw an image of er father,
Reflected.

She knew that one day, she would go running,
into the open arms of her father,
and he would lead her, smiling, loving,
to the throne of God,
and the Lord would smile and say
"Well Done"

I can't wait till that day that i run into my father's arms, safe, worm, big, and secure. The day that i got the news, i wished that i had died with him, Teagan said, "now it wont mater if i get hit with a car, i'll just go see daddy" I wish it was that easy. But it's not, i would leave all the ones i love behind me. And right now that's a thought i cant bare. Right now i could use all the suport that i can get. And i understand if you are busy or think we cant be friends or something. But I would still like it. Well i'll post something when i have something to post bye.

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