Here's to another year

I'm having difficulty believing it's been a whole year, actually a little bit more, since I last posted something. Goes to show how busy college life is. So much has happened in a year that I'm having trouble figuring out what's worth writing about. 

Well, first semester was pretty mellow, I drove there, sat through my lectures, drove home, did homework, and then basically watched TV. That was basically my life for the whole first semester.
Now, it changed once second semester happened.
So the inciting incident....was a car crash. So now I was carless, thank the Lord no one was hurt, all I got out of it was a scar on my hip from the seatbelt, and a rug burn on my chin from the airbag.
That was then what started all the job applications, car hunting, and staying with my aunt who lived closer to my school for the last two weeks of the semester.
Needless to say once the semester ended I had an amazing Christmas break that was divvied up between my one set of grandparents in Alabama, my boyfriend and his family in Minnesota, and my other set of grandparents in Canada.
Fun times.

Second semester was different in the fact that I now work at a local Mom and Pop's restaurant. And that led to less time for TV, and homework, but some how I still managed to get on Dean's List, and inducted into an Honors Society for Freshmen. It was all very exciting!
I also turned 19 second semester, (scary number, next year I'll be 20! Talk about weird) and that's when I got inducted to the world of smart phones by a dear friend who gave me one for my birthday. (She's amazing!)
Most of second semester was a large count down clock until the second month of my summer break. My family flew back this summer from Africa to gather up more support for their next term. (And of course to see their missing family member.)
They were here two days before we were headed back to the airport to pick up my boyfriend who was coming down to visit for two weeks. I'm tempted to say those were the best two weeks of my summer, but I also don't want to insult my family. (Love you guys!)

So anyways, lets see....over this summer I have traveled through 8 states, and 1 province. Lots of time was spent in my little Santa Fe car.
But it was fun to be back with my family and to see everyone again. I loved visiting all my extended family members, it was all in all a fantastic summer!

So there's the past year in a nutshell. I hope everyone had one just as good as mine, and that you learned a lot through it. Whether it be through school or real life, I hope you learned something about yourself.

I'll try to post more, and not leave you hanging for another year. (I make no promises though)

An Empty Chair

The commotion was insane, the church was full of parents with flashing cameras trying to get a snapshot of their own child walking down the isle to the stage.
I had no idea where my own family was, I just grinned at the girl next to me, a dear friend I had come to love over the past year, as we walked down the middle isle to the stage. She took my lead as I led the way to go sit down in our seats at the back of the stage.
I couldn't really see much out in the crowd because there was so many lights starring me in the face. But I did manage to see the row my family was sitting in. Teagan waved exuberantly at me, and Tabitha winked. Mom just smiled, and then of course there was Loewen making his goofy face that made me almost crack up laughing right there on stage.
My breath got caught in my throat when I saw that the chair right next to Loewen was empty.
Now it wouldn't have meant much other then the fact that my family had the perfect seats that were great to see the whole class on the stage.
But that one chair was empty.
And I knew exactly who was sitting there.

Here I Go Again....

I'm officially Royalty.

And by this I mean I'm officially a college student! I don't know how to really get my brain to wrap around this, its' insane to stop and think about. Only a year ago I was up in the Rift Valley in Kenya, and now I'm in the flat lands of Florida.

It's been such a blessed year though I will say. So many things happened to me that helped me grow in my spiritual walk. I met so many great friends, and made some unexpected relationships!
I met some friends I know I will never forget and always keep in contact with, along with a special someone who's become extremely close to me over the year.
I learned so much not only through my teachers and the subjects they taught, but also through all the people God placed in my life.

It was hard saying good bye to all those wonderful people, and so much more harder saying bye to my own family as they stay back in Africa and continue their ministry. But here I am now, settled in with my aunt's family, (I have inherited two little brothers.) and it's been great driving myself down to college, and learning to do stuff on my own but still have a family around that I can lean on when I need it.
It'll be a good year I think, it's going to be one full of uncertainty and adventures, but I think it'll be good for me.

She is Free

She is Free
Inspired by a dear friend

He didn't understand what was happening. 

The wretched heart was turning gold. 

Carefully, he turned the crystal clear, glass heart over in his hands. It had taken him years and years of work to get the clear whiteness of innocence to slowly change into gray. Another several years took the gray to black. All the while he had worked tirelessly at the stupid girl's mind. Whispering in her ear, weaving her dreams, placing longing's in her heart. When the glass heart turned completely black, he cried out with glee, immediately setting out to celebrate.

But he had acted too soon.

Gold. The color of the sky when the glaring sun made it's appearance in the mornings. This was the one color he never wanted to see in the little glass heart.

Gold.

He certainly wasn't doing it. He quickly turned to the girl's mind and could do nothing but gape. All the lies, all the dreams he had taken great care to place in her mind, they were all unraveling like someone taking apart a tapestry.

The girl wasn't alone. No, far from it!

The presence burnt at his skin, and blinded his eyes, wretched music pierced his ears. He quickly went to work and began to try and savior what he could of his web that was now burning away before him. But all the blasted girl wanted was more of the gold light. 

More of Him.

As he worked desperately he watched the glass heart, still in his hand, as more of the light ate away at the darkness that he had created. Faster than he thought possible, there wasn't a shadow of darkness left!

No! She was free!

He grasped the fragile thing and threw it as far from him as possible, hoping to break it in the process.

To his horror, the moment before it would break into a thousand pieces beyond repair, another caught it.

He met the other's eyes and growled with hate and loathing.
"Go." The other commanded. "You're work is finished here. She is free."

What Happens When I'm Bored

So I had a bit of free time, and this is what came out of it. Enjoy! ^_^

The white snowflakes fell gently on top of her head, landing on the brightly colored beanie she had on. Her long brown hair fell in waves down her back, also spotted with white flakes that gave it the look that she had diamonds sprinkled in her hair.

A smile crossed her lips as she trudged through the snow. As gracefully as a dancer, she jumped onto the side walk and opened the door to her favorite coffee shop known only as Perks.
Her order was taken at the front, and large, leather, comfy arm chair awaited her as she hung her coat up at the front of the shop, and made her way over to it, clutching her satchel to her side very carefully.
Once she had sat down, she pulled out something from the bag, ever so carefully as if the object might fall apart in her hands, or maybe it was just that she handled it with love because of how fond she was of the object. She let out a sigh of pure contentment as she opened the book, flipping gently to where she had left off. As soon as she read the first words, she was lost to the world she was in, she knew not of the mug sitting on the coffee table in front of her holding her favorite hot chocolate sprinkled with cinnamon. Her attention wasn't drawn to the fresh chocolate doughnut that was still warm, nor of the boy that sat a few chairs away, watching her with the slightest smile on his face. The smile grew wider as he watched her eyes aglow as they fluttered across those beloved pages, her facial expression changed quickly from one of confusion, to anger, to absolute adoration, until finally she sighed, set the book down on her lap and stared out the window. A melancholy look passed across her face as she finally noticed the cup of hot chocolate and raised it to her lips, just before she took a sip, her eyes peered over the top of the mug and met his, a look of recognition passed between the two and her eyes gave away the fact that she was smiling. 

On The Other Side

There was a hush inside the church, all that could be heard was the dry wind outside wiping up the African dust. Thirty children all colored ebony, sat quietly, and patiently for us, their eyes were the only things that moved as they followed our every move.

My sisters came over with their arms full of green and red boxes, all taped up with white tape that said, Samaritan's Purse in bold letters. I watched as their eyes grew wide in anticipation, one little girl broke the silence by giggling as Tabitha placed one of the precious boxes into the little girl's tiny hands.
A few moments later, all the children held their boxes on top of their heads in pride, as they started to sing 'Jesus Loves Me.'

My heart instantly became overwhelmed with a joy I had only felt a few times before. Tears found their way down my cheeks as I watched these precious little children sing from their hearts before they even opened the boxes! They were thankful to simply get the box, because just those red and green boxes meant so much. It wasn't what was inside them that made such an impact on them, it was that God was faithful and cared so, so much about each of these beautiful children that he would send them Christmas presents in April.

The next hour or so, was full of laughter, tears, and cries of joy. I witnessed just how much I, as a person from America, took things for granted. I saw children watch a top spin, and once it stopped they would spin it again and they never seemed to loose interest in it. Boys showed off their new Hot Wheels like it was their pride and joy. Girls were in awe as they gently plucked out their new dolls from their boxes, their fingers would gently touch the doll's hair wonder.
In one girl's box, everything was kept in by Ziploc bags, which made sense to me, so that space could be cut down by taking everything out of the packaging. But the poor girl didn't know what a Ziploc bag was! She didn't know the toys could come out of it.

All of it gave me a new understanding, and a new appreciation for all that God had blessed me with, but I didn't think much about it at the time, these moments weren't about me, they were about the children in front of me who were blessed in so many ways by the thoughtful families back in the United States who had spent one of their days picking out presents for them, and took the time to send it off.

It was amazing to think just how far these boxes had traveled. From an American's living room, they found themselves in the laps of thirty little children who had never even laid eyes on some of the things in those boxes, like Twizzlers, or glow sticks.

In an hour and a half, it was over, and the children started to pack up their toys back in their boxes, place them on top of their heads and walk out of the church. Even though it was over, the joy was still evident as they said 'thank you' to me, their pearly white teeth shined through as their smiles went from ear to ear. I can't fully express what a blessing it was for me that I was allowed to witness the opening of those Samaritan's Purse boxes, it was such a gift to me that I know I'll never be able to forget those smiles, and those excited squeals of joy. And every time I remember those faces, they will remind me never to take what I have for granted. 

Home

What would you do, if the only thing you had left of someone was ripped out of your arms? By a force that only wanted to hurt you, it lived for nothing else but your suffering? What would you do?
You'd go after it.

Most people, when they find that they have lost someone, deny it. Their new reality angers them, to the point that that anger boils up like a soup someone left on the stove and had forgotten about. Eventually it over flows. But for me, when I lost that someone, I did the only thing I could do.

I wrote.

It wasn't always like this. At some point in everyone's life there's a happy part, and if the person's lucky, maybe there are several parts. In my life, the happy parts were a sweet seasoning sprinkled out among the bad parts.

I guess I should start by showing you the setting, after all, what's a story with out a setting?


My home is a mesh of things. Cities with electricity, running hot water, cars, movie theaters, shopping malls and water parks dot the country. But drive an hour or two (or three or four depending on the traffic) and you're surrounded by wide open planes with tall grass that glows gold in the setting sun. Trees unique to the continent are sprinkled throughout the planes, you hardly ever see two together and it crosses your mind just how lonely it must be to not have any friends around.
At first glance, the savannah is peaceful. Serene. Like heaven's door just opened and you realize you could look at it until you went blind but you'd never be able to capture it all. Take a closer look.

It's teaming with life! Lions chasing down their next meal, cheetahs lazing about in the shade, leopards watching their cubs climb trees only to fall on their little heads in the end. Zebras roam the planes, enjoying the sweet grass, hippos splash playfully in the river.

And the savannahs are only a fraction of the continent, in fact they're the icing on the cake. The real jewel is the people that make the place what it is. Mamas walk down the dirt roads, balancing baskets of fruit or jugs of water on their heads, while they herd their children back towards home. Men pedal down the streets, shouting greetings to their friends as they pass by. Kids get up at the crack of dawn to start the hike to school several miles away.

It's all in the people. That's what makes up my home. The smiles, the tears, the fact that life is about making friendships and relationships, not about getting the work done. There's beauty here, just as much as there is danger. People look at my home from afar with their up turned noses and a concrete mind set that no one could live there. But let me tell you different; we don't just live, we thrive.

Welcome to the Dark Continent.